30 Posts Of Truth- Day 10 AND 11.

Day 10- Someone you need to let go, or wish you had never met.

Being as I'm off on my days for these posts anyway (and my OCD is most definitely NOT okay with that), I'm going to choose this one to just skip all together because I don't HAVE anyone in my life that I wis I'd never met. If I feel that way about someone, I'm not very good at hiding it. They're usually out of the picture pretty quickly.

So! On to day 11! And now finally, my post numbers will coincide with the date and my sweet, neurotic little heart can finally be at peace about it. Yay!

Day 11- something people usually seem to compliment you on.

Urrrmmmmm..... Okay so here's the thing... I'm one of those people (dUh. DUH.) that doesn't take a compliment well. Not at all not ever no ma'am. I'm not sure really what causes me to react the way I do. I get- defensive? Irritated? Annoyed? I'm not sure what to call it. I know one thing though, that I get REALLY uncomfortable.
Could it be that whole masochism issue I discussed before?

I think that's probably exactly what it is. Anyway, the point being that I'm not good with compliments. This unfortunately means that usually when I am given one I don't ever remember it later because "SO not true. Please stop talking to me now before I get all weird.... Oh wait...."

If I were to pick one thing that has actually stayed with me though I would say it's what I've been hearing from YOU recently. You, right there, at your computer/laptop/smart phone or whatever it is, that have been reading these rambling, completely narcissistic posts that I've been publishing the last 11 days.

You've had nothing but warm, kind words for me. I don't know that I can really put into words what that means to me, and what it has done for me. I mean, I spoke and someone really CARED? Like REALLY? Someone READ IT?
OH MYLANTA THERE ARE SEVERAL PEOPLE. WILL ONE OF YOU BE SO KIND AS TO BRING ME A BAG TO BREATHE INTO?
Because I'm feeling a bit faint.


Thank you. Thank you for reading. Thank you for listening. Thank you most of all for even caring. I don't know what else to say.